The Search

The search continues, what search you may ask? The search for the reason(s) why you must endure the pain that is bestowed upon you at this moment. I don't think anyone really has an answer as to how to continue or end the search. The beginning point is always with you, we all know this but this also the hardest part because we actually have to look at ourselves. The answer(s)are there. I had written an earlier statement about accepting ones responsibilities but this is in a different format. This is about the pain that is happening because know the cause yet we just dont know where to actually get the answers. We started with looking at ourselves, we know the problems, we know what the answer(s) should be but..... It is because of this (but) they we lose the

Rev Smitty's Run Ons: Goodbye#links

Rev Smitty's Run Ons: Goodbye#links

Goodbye

How do you say goodbye to someone you don't ( didn't ) want to leave. Your heart is empty but heavy, your soul is wandering, you feel lost. I didnt want you to go and I know you must leave but it doesnt change things. Your destiny is what it is, some things we can change others can not. I know it was not your choice One day we will all have to make a this choice but it doesnt make it easier. The love that was shared can never be replaced nor should it. The moments spent together was ( is ) one in a million. The impact you have made upon me was surprising deep even though I couldnt resist. Everyday I wrap myself in knowing that no one can touch my heart and soul as you have done. So is this goodbye or farewell until we meet again? Time says it is farewell but it feels like goodbye, so how do I say goodbye? I dont!!!


Farewell

How Do I ??

How do I help when the words are only words? The pain you are feeling is only one you can feel. I want to tell you all will be okay but who the hell knows when that will happen. I want you to know that you have touched many in your lifetime and more to come, all of them are definitely been blessed by your tenderness you have shown to them. Those who know you will feel your pain even if they dont know how to show you. Words are just words when spoken without the heart being attached. How do I let you know my words are filled with all the love my heart can give? How do I tell you that you are so important in my life? How do I tell you that on the days when I feel lost, your words are all that I need to make it thru the day? How do I let you know that life is full of pain but remembering the joys are the ones that count? How do I give you the same comfort you have given me on sooo many occasions? How do I help? I guess I can only say the words that I LOVE YOU!! How do I put the blanket of comfort around you from afar? Close your eyes and think of all the joys you have had in your life and you will feel my (blanket) of comfort surrounding you. How do I show you I am here to cry to, to yell at, to let you be you, to let you learn to walk again, to be the rock you can leave on but also the rock you need to toss your words on? I do it thru these words for now, when I see you again you will see my actions. Pain is the other side of joy, to know JOY you must also know Pain. You must have both to know when you one or the other. I will share your pain if you will let me. Time heals all wounds but the scars will remain how you deal with them on a daily basis is up to you. One NEW day at a time!!!

How Do I?

Like Box - Facebook Developers

Like Box - Facebook Developers

Betrayal

Betrayal describe by Webster:to be disloyal, to reveal in violation of one's confidence, to deliver or expose to an enemy by treachery. Wow how deep is that? In modern day society betrayal is more rampant and used to gain the recognition of others who seek to destroy a adversary. An adversary today is not necessary an enemy in arms but a competitor in where someone feels the should be. Jealousy is the most common reason for betrayal rather it is the person betraying or the persons they are betraying to. The outcome of this betrayal usually cost a friendship that was closer and more sincere than the one they seek. A friendship built on betrayal leads to further betrayal and you never really gain the acceptance and or trust of the new person. The betrayer usually is only used until they no longer are needed and then they themselves will be betrayed. See it is a vicious cycle that will never end and only PAIN will come from it. If someone felt the comfort and trust in you to tell you thier inner most secrets and feelings than that is the true friendship you seek. We are in a world of immediate satisfaction and need to belong to the POPULAR club, well that club is a fleeting club and true freindships last a lifetime. Question I ask: can a betrayal of friendship trust ever be fixed? I think it can in time but it must be the betrayer to initiate the reunion and the must be willing to accept the consequences of the actions. The pain caused by betrayal is soooo deep that it has caused the betrayed person to question themselves everyday as to who to trust, who to talk to. The self esteem of the betrayed person is also at the lowest of low because they don't know who knows. So you see if you have betrayed anyone this is the result of your betrayal. I hope the true friend you lost was well worth the pain you caused. If not it is never to late to ask for forgiveness but be ready for the betrayed person to not forgive you!



Everything worthwhile has a fence around it!
( But there is always a gate and key if you will look hard enough)

Distance

I ♥ you enough 2 fight 4 you,Enough 2 miss u incredibly when we’re apart,no matter what length of time it’s for & regardless of d distance. Enough 2 believe in our relationship,2 stand by it through d worst of times,2 have faith in our strength,& to never give up on us.Enough 2 spend d rest of my life with u,be there 4 u when you need or want me,& never, ever want to leave u or live without you. I ♥ you this much…