Thursday, May 6, 2010

I am here I was there

There are times in our lives when we feel useless. times when we dont have the answers and don't know where to find them. In these times your answers are right before you, just open your eyes. Look at the people who are around you because they want to be not because they have to be, thier love is true and available to you when you dont think you need it or want it. When we have loved ones hurting and we are asking ourselves what do we do? take a moment ask yourself what would you want to be done if it was you hurting. I remember it was I that had to make the decisions to end 2 of my family members suffering, my brother and my mother. It was almost the hardest decision I had to make at the time but I know what they wanted and what I would want if it had been me. On the other hand I was the one who also made the decision to go to all of my father inlaws appts when he was diagnosed with Cancer. The endless radiation, Chemotherapy, sitting by his side in dr's offices, making sure he took his meds keeping his spirits up. You see all I needed to do was just be there he told me with not only his words but with his heart, his smile, his anger Thank you!! All you can do is be there when you can and however you can. The person hurting is not only hurting physically but mentally because they don't want to be a burden to you as we don't want to be a burden to anyone else. The moments spent should be those of joy, remembering the good times you shared and going to share. Each day together is a Blessed day. I made it thru all of my decisions with the help of very good friends ( I am YOURS} and the love and support of my immediate and extended family. I love them for just being. I am here and Always will be. Extend your hand and I will not only extend my hand but my HEART as well.

God will give you only as much as he feels you can handle, key is what HE feels. You are a fighter, a friend, a son, a daughter. You are blessed.

Jim, this is for you and anyone else who feels this is needed

Wings of Love and Friendship are on us all, let me spread mine around you


You know it is so easy to get lost in today's world there are so many obstacles in our way. The obstacles are the same for most of us just in different degrees. Most of the obstacles are our own doing ie: kids, marriage, dating and just self indecision. Kids god bless them but they have noo idea of the stress we put on ourselves to make sure they have everything and more of the needs and wants. Kids never understand that we want to do more but sometimes just can't and that hurts us and stresses us out more than just thier little wants not needs but wants. Marriage {dating, going together, habging out} whatever you want to call it is also a very stressful interference for all involved and especially when it comes to an end a ( nasty) as most do. Again you work soo hard to get and give all of your being to someone and it isnt appreciated or abused in the name of "LOVE". Self indecision is our greatest fault because it is this that makes us do the things we know we can't do. It is the self worthlessness that keeps us from putting our foot down when we should and making us feel guilty when we do. We from an older generation must remember the lessons taught to us by our parents" you are worth more than anything in the world, you can become anything you want to, wait til you have kids of your own, money doesn't grow on trees, eat what is on your plate or don't eat at all, respect your elders, work to overcome your obstacles, life isnt easy, enjoy the time you have" these are just a few of the sayings I heard growing up and I am sure some of you have heard them as well. The purpose of the runon is to let you know. Be the person YOU ARE not the person others think you should be and the rewards will be forever lasting. The REAL you will bring the respect that you deserve. Only those who are on the same "truthness" will understand and let you be the YOU, you want to be. I am ME with all my faults love me as me, accept me as me. They other obstacles will eventually move on and you will be able to see how you and them have grown from you being you!!

Decisions are hard when it is the right decision

Peace and Love

Jinna, Mothers Day wish

Motherhood is tough 24 hour job,no pay,no day off, sometimes it is unappreciated, but yet resignation is impossible. A mother is a woman who's created by God to bring love, joy, happiness and caring into his world. I am so glad God has created a woman to be a mother, even though motherhood is a full time job, a mother's work is never done. Happy Mother's Day Everyone!!!!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


Always tell someone how you feel. Mean what you say and say what you mean. Even when it's hard, coz' opportunities are lost in just a blink of an eye, but regrets can last a lifetime...

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In a sentence of love, oftentimes you have to put a period on something that has to end and not just settle on a comma. In time, you will realize that it's nicer to see a complete sentence rather than a phrase that's completely hanging and doesn't even make any sense... ♥ ♥ ♥

my niece Jinna
2nd installment