Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Rev Smitty's Run Ons: Goodbye#links

Rev Smitty's Run Ons: Goodbye#links


How do you say goodbye to someone you don't ( didn't ) want to leave. Your heart is empty but heavy, your soul is wandering, you feel lost. I didnt want you to go and I know you must leave but it doesnt change things. Your destiny is what it is, some things we can change others can not. I know it was not your choice One day we will all have to make a this choice but it doesnt make it easier. The love that was shared can never be replaced nor should it. The moments spent together was ( is ) one in a million. The impact you have made upon me was surprising deep even though I couldnt resist. Everyday I wrap myself in knowing that no one can touch my heart and soul as you have done. So is this goodbye or farewell until we meet again? Time says it is farewell but it feels like goodbye, so how do I say goodbye? I dont!!!


Thursday, August 5, 2010

How Do I ??

How do I help when the words are only words? The pain you are feeling is only one you can feel. I want to tell you all will be okay but who the hell knows when that will happen. I want you to know that you have touched many in your lifetime and more to come, all of them are definitely been blessed by your tenderness you have shown to them. Those who know you will feel your pain even if they dont know how to show you. Words are just words when spoken without the heart being attached. How do I let you know my words are filled with all the love my heart can give? How do I tell you that you are so important in my life? How do I tell you that on the days when I feel lost, your words are all that I need to make it thru the day? How do I let you know that life is full of pain but remembering the joys are the ones that count? How do I give you the same comfort you have given me on sooo many occasions? How do I help? I guess I can only say the words that I LOVE YOU!! How do I put the blanket of comfort around you from afar? Close your eyes and think of all the joys you have had in your life and you will feel my (blanket) of comfort surrounding you. How do I show you I am here to cry to, to yell at, to let you be you, to let you learn to walk again, to be the rock you can leave on but also the rock you need to toss your words on? I do it thru these words for now, when I see you again you will see my actions. Pain is the other side of joy, to know JOY you must also know Pain. You must have both to know when you one or the other. I will share your pain if you will let me. Time heals all wounds but the scars will remain how you deal with them on a daily basis is up to you. One NEW day at a time!!!

How Do I?

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Like Box - Facebook Developers

Like Box - Facebook Developers


Betrayal describe by Webster:to be disloyal, to reveal in violation of one's confidence, to deliver or expose to an enemy by treachery. Wow how deep is that? In modern day society betrayal is more rampant and used to gain the recognition of others who seek to destroy a adversary. An adversary today is not necessary an enemy in arms but a competitor in where someone feels the should be. Jealousy is the most common reason for betrayal rather it is the person betraying or the persons they are betraying to. The outcome of this betrayal usually cost a friendship that was closer and more sincere than the one they seek. A friendship built on betrayal leads to further betrayal and you never really gain the acceptance and or trust of the new person. The betrayer usually is only used until they no longer are needed and then they themselves will be betrayed. See it is a vicious cycle that will never end and only PAIN will come from it. If someone felt the comfort and trust in you to tell you thier inner most secrets and feelings than that is the true friendship you seek. We are in a world of immediate satisfaction and need to belong to the POPULAR club, well that club is a fleeting club and true freindships last a lifetime. Question I ask: can a betrayal of friendship trust ever be fixed? I think it can in time but it must be the betrayer to initiate the reunion and the must be willing to accept the consequences of the actions. The pain caused by betrayal is soooo deep that it has caused the betrayed person to question themselves everyday as to who to trust, who to talk to. The self esteem of the betrayed person is also at the lowest of low because they don't know who knows. So you see if you have betrayed anyone this is the result of your betrayal. I hope the true friend you lost was well worth the pain you caused. If not it is never to late to ask for forgiveness but be ready for the betrayed person to not forgive you!

Everything worthwhile has a fence around it!
( But there is always a gate and key if you will look hard enough)

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Jinna's world

I ♥ you enough 2 fight 4 you,Enough 2 miss u incredibly when we’re apart,no matter what length of time it’s for & regardless of d distance. Enough 2 believe in our relationship,2 stand by it through d worst of times,2 have faith in our strength,& to never give up on us.Enough 2 spend d rest of my life with u,be there 4 u when you need or want me,& never, ever want to leave u or live without you. I ♥ you this much…

Thursday, May 6, 2010

I am here I was there

There are times in our lives when we feel useless. times when we dont have the answers and don't know where to find them. In these times your answers are right before you, just open your eyes. Look at the people who are around you because they want to be not because they have to be, thier love is true and available to you when you dont think you need it or want it. When we have loved ones hurting and we are asking ourselves what do we do? take a moment ask yourself what would you want to be done if it was you hurting. I remember it was I that had to make the decisions to end 2 of my family members suffering, my brother and my mother. It was almost the hardest decision I had to make at the time but I know what they wanted and what I would want if it had been me. On the other hand I was the one who also made the decision to go to all of my father inlaws appts when he was diagnosed with Cancer. The endless radiation, Chemotherapy, sitting by his side in dr's offices, making sure he took his meds keeping his spirits up. You see all I needed to do was just be there he told me with not only his words but with his heart, his smile, his anger Thank you!! All you can do is be there when you can and however you can. The person hurting is not only hurting physically but mentally because they don't want to be a burden to you as we don't want to be a burden to anyone else. The moments spent should be those of joy, remembering the good times you shared and going to share. Each day together is a Blessed day. I made it thru all of my decisions with the help of very good friends ( I am YOURS} and the love and support of my immediate and extended family. I love them for just being. I am here and Always will be. Extend your hand and I will not only extend my hand but my HEART as well.

God will give you only as much as he feels you can handle, key is what HE feels. You are a fighter, a friend, a son, a daughter. You are blessed.

Jim, this is for you and anyone else who feels this is needed

Wings of Love and Friendship are on us all, let me spread mine around you


You know it is so easy to get lost in today's world there are so many obstacles in our way. The obstacles are the same for most of us just in different degrees. Most of the obstacles are our own doing ie: kids, marriage, dating and just self indecision. Kids god bless them but they have noo idea of the stress we put on ourselves to make sure they have everything and more of the needs and wants. Kids never understand that we want to do more but sometimes just can't and that hurts us and stresses us out more than just thier little wants not needs but wants. Marriage {dating, going together, habging out} whatever you want to call it is also a very stressful interference for all involved and especially when it comes to an end a ( nasty) as most do. Again you work soo hard to get and give all of your being to someone and it isnt appreciated or abused in the name of "LOVE". Self indecision is our greatest fault because it is this that makes us do the things we know we can't do. It is the self worthlessness that keeps us from putting our foot down when we should and making us feel guilty when we do. We from an older generation must remember the lessons taught to us by our parents" you are worth more than anything in the world, you can become anything you want to, wait til you have kids of your own, money doesn't grow on trees, eat what is on your plate or don't eat at all, respect your elders, work to overcome your obstacles, life isnt easy, enjoy the time you have" these are just a few of the sayings I heard growing up and I am sure some of you have heard them as well. The purpose of the runon is to let you know. Be the person YOU ARE not the person others think you should be and the rewards will be forever lasting. The REAL you will bring the respect that you deserve. Only those who are on the same "truthness" will understand and let you be the YOU, you want to be. I am ME with all my faults love me as me, accept me as me. They other obstacles will eventually move on and you will be able to see how you and them have grown from you being you!!

Decisions are hard when it is the right decision

Peace and Love

Jinna, Mothers Day wish

Motherhood is tough 24 hour job,no pay,no day off, sometimes it is unappreciated, but yet resignation is impossible. A mother is a woman who's created by God to bring love, joy, happiness and caring into his world. I am so glad God has created a woman to be a mother, even though motherhood is a full time job, a mother's work is never done. Happy Mother's Day Everyone!!!!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


Always tell someone how you feel. Mean what you say and say what you mean. Even when it's hard, coz' opportunities are lost in just a blink of an eye, but regrets can last a lifetime...

# 3


In a sentence of love, oftentimes you have to put a period on something that has to end and not just settle on a comma. In time, you will realize that it's nicer to see a complete sentence rather than a phrase that's completely hanging and doesn't even make any sense... ♥ ♥ ♥

my niece Jinna
2nd installment

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

A New Journey has begun: Does it ever stop?

Does it ever stop? what is it? The pain and joy of love. Why is it that this one emotion is so demanding of your mind, body and soul? So much of our lives is based on this emotion that lives have both lost and reborn. Can you really deny this. I have tried on many occasions to hide my emotions but they always seem to prevail. I can't stop how I feel or can I? I like the feeling of closeness that this emotion brings into my life when it is in full force. The tingling feeling throughout your body, the butterflies in your tummy and the glow in your face and eyes. Wow!!! It is truly amazing but on the other end it also drains the most out of you as well. The pain that this emotion causes have made many men {women} crumble to thier knees and commit the ultimate sin {suicide}. Does the control of this emotion ever stop controlling you? I don't think so because without it where would we be, I dont want to think about it. The "love" emotion is what helps us make it thru the day, it is part of what we count on when we wake up in the morning. Will we love the things, places and tasks we have to do today. What about affairs of the heart? Why does it hurt sooo bad when it does stop from the other person when you are not ready for it to stop. Does it really stop on their end or is it just that they want to hurt you? Is it because what they may think is love is really not? Is it truly possible to go on without it {them}. Once you have loved someone do you really stop? Isn't there always something in the back of your mind saying "Does it ever stop"? The question should be do you really want it to stop, the joy, the feeling that consumed your whole being with that person?

Give feedback on this please.

Love is?
Love was?
Love should be...

Saturday, February 13, 2010


I wanna be the reason for the smile on your face
I wanna be the one that you'll never replace
I wanna be the girl who steals your heart
I want you to want us to never be apart
I wanna wake up with you lying by my side
I wanna hold you close,
wanna feel you hold me tight
I wanna fall asleep with you,
wanna be your guiding light
I wanna be the girl you see,
when you point and say 'thats her'
I wanna be the girl to whom no-one can compare
I wanna be the one you love until the end of time
I wanna be the reason that
you write these stupid rhymes
I wanna be your one and only,
you're every dream come true
I want ours to be a perfect love,
that others compare their's to
I wanna be your angel…

courtesy of my niece
Jinna Licahuco

Wednesday, February 3, 2010


What makes a family? Is a family only connected by blood? Is a family a group of people who share a common goal? We all have what we call our family as those we are blood bound children,parents, brothers, sisters, grandparents, uncles and aunts. While this is true we have an extended family which consist of people we call friends. Friends are those people we let into our world, they gain our trust and our love. We trust our most precious treasures to our closest friends. My treasures are my children. While I have many friends there are only a few I would trust my treasures too. I know that they would be treated as if they were thier tresures as well. As well as if I had thier treasures they would be protected just like mine. So while blood does make a family, it takes trust, love, honesty, mutual respect to be a non blood family. This type of family is a very important part of growth in all of our lives. A family member whether blood or not is responsible for the type of person you become. The knowledge to be gained from famliy is priceless. The next time you see a member of your Family let them know how much they mean to you and thank them for being a part of your life and letting you be a part of thiers.

I pray for love, peace and happiness for all of you

New Year Resolutions

Why is it every Jan 1 we make these resolutions we know we are not going to keep? Who decided that this day was the day we needed to lie to ourselves. the new year should be looked upon a new beginning of hope, love and growth not lies. If we all just try to better each day than we wouldn't need this day as a marker. Each day you wake up and take a breath is a blessed day rejoice not waller in your what if and your (failures}. Failures should be looked upon as another oppurtunity is being given to succeed and make you stronger. Grasp each so called failure as a gift to build better character, inner strength and pride. God, Jehovah, Mohammad, Yaweh, BUddha, or whomever you feel will not let you take on more than they feel you csn handle, without pain there is no happiness, without failure there is no success. So stop picking this day as a way to lie to yourself make everyday a day for you to realize that you have been blessed and strive to better yourself and your world.

Peace to you