Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Rev Smitty's Run Ons: Goodbye#links

Rev Smitty's Run Ons: Goodbye#links


How do you say goodbye to someone you don't ( didn't ) want to leave. Your heart is empty but heavy, your soul is wandering, you feel lost. I didnt want you to go and I know you must leave but it doesnt change things. Your destiny is what it is, some things we can change others can not. I know it was not your choice One day we will all have to make a this choice but it doesnt make it easier. The love that was shared can never be replaced nor should it. The moments spent together was ( is ) one in a million. The impact you have made upon me was surprising deep even though I couldnt resist. Everyday I wrap myself in knowing that no one can touch my heart and soul as you have done. So is this goodbye or farewell until we meet again? Time says it is farewell but it feels like goodbye, so how do I say goodbye? I dont!!!


Thursday, August 5, 2010

How Do I ??

How do I help when the words are only words? The pain you are feeling is only one you can feel. I want to tell you all will be okay but who the hell knows when that will happen. I want you to know that you have touched many in your lifetime and more to come, all of them are definitely been blessed by your tenderness you have shown to them. Those who know you will feel your pain even if they dont know how to show you. Words are just words when spoken without the heart being attached. How do I let you know my words are filled with all the love my heart can give? How do I tell you that you are so important in my life? How do I tell you that on the days when I feel lost, your words are all that I need to make it thru the day? How do I let you know that life is full of pain but remembering the joys are the ones that count? How do I give you the same comfort you have given me on sooo many occasions? How do I help? I guess I can only say the words that I LOVE YOU!! How do I put the blanket of comfort around you from afar? Close your eyes and think of all the joys you have had in your life and you will feel my (blanket) of comfort surrounding you. How do I show you I am here to cry to, to yell at, to let you be you, to let you learn to walk again, to be the rock you can leave on but also the rock you need to toss your words on? I do it thru these words for now, when I see you again you will see my actions. Pain is the other side of joy, to know JOY you must also know Pain. You must have both to know when you one or the other. I will share your pain if you will let me. Time heals all wounds but the scars will remain how you deal with them on a daily basis is up to you. One NEW day at a time!!!

How Do I?

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Like Box - Facebook Developers

Like Box - Facebook Developers


Betrayal describe by Webster:to be disloyal, to reveal in violation of one's confidence, to deliver or expose to an enemy by treachery. Wow how deep is that? In modern day society betrayal is more rampant and used to gain the recognition of others who seek to destroy a adversary. An adversary today is not necessary an enemy in arms but a competitor in where someone feels the should be. Jealousy is the most common reason for betrayal rather it is the person betraying or the persons they are betraying to. The outcome of this betrayal usually cost a friendship that was closer and more sincere than the one they seek. A friendship built on betrayal leads to further betrayal and you never really gain the acceptance and or trust of the new person. The betrayer usually is only used until they no longer are needed and then they themselves will be betrayed. See it is a vicious cycle that will never end and only PAIN will come from it. If someone felt the comfort and trust in you to tell you thier inner most secrets and feelings than that is the true friendship you seek. We are in a world of immediate satisfaction and need to belong to the POPULAR club, well that club is a fleeting club and true freindships last a lifetime. Question I ask: can a betrayal of friendship trust ever be fixed? I think it can in time but it must be the betrayer to initiate the reunion and the must be willing to accept the consequences of the actions. The pain caused by betrayal is soooo deep that it has caused the betrayed person to question themselves everyday as to who to trust, who to talk to. The self esteem of the betrayed person is also at the lowest of low because they don't know who knows. So you see if you have betrayed anyone this is the result of your betrayal. I hope the true friend you lost was well worth the pain you caused. If not it is never to late to ask for forgiveness but be ready for the betrayed person to not forgive you!

Everything worthwhile has a fence around it!
( But there is always a gate and key if you will look hard enough)

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Jinna's world

I ♥ you enough 2 fight 4 you,Enough 2 miss u incredibly when we’re apart,no matter what length of time it’s for & regardless of d distance. Enough 2 believe in our relationship,2 stand by it through d worst of times,2 have faith in our strength,& to never give up on us.Enough 2 spend d rest of my life with u,be there 4 u when you need or want me,& never, ever want to leave u or live without you. I ♥ you this much…

Thursday, May 6, 2010

I am here I was there

There are times in our lives when we feel useless. times when we dont have the answers and don't know where to find them. In these times your answers are right before you, just open your eyes. Look at the people who are around you because they want to be not because they have to be, thier love is true and available to you when you dont think you need it or want it. When we have loved ones hurting and we are asking ourselves what do we do? take a moment ask yourself what would you want to be done if it was you hurting. I remember it was I that had to make the decisions to end 2 of my family members suffering, my brother and my mother. It was almost the hardest decision I had to make at the time but I know what they wanted and what I would want if it had been me. On the other hand I was the one who also made the decision to go to all of my father inlaws appts when he was diagnosed with Cancer. The endless radiation, Chemotherapy, sitting by his side in dr's offices, making sure he took his meds keeping his spirits up. You see all I needed to do was just be there he told me with not only his words but with his heart, his smile, his anger Thank you!! All you can do is be there when you can and however you can. The person hurting is not only hurting physically but mentally because they don't want to be a burden to you as we don't want to be a burden to anyone else. The moments spent should be those of joy, remembering the good times you shared and going to share. Each day together is a Blessed day. I made it thru all of my decisions with the help of very good friends ( I am YOURS} and the love and support of my immediate and extended family. I love them for just being. I am here and Always will be. Extend your hand and I will not only extend my hand but my HEART as well.

God will give you only as much as he feels you can handle, key is what HE feels. You are a fighter, a friend, a son, a daughter. You are blessed.

Jim, this is for you and anyone else who feels this is needed

Wings of Love and Friendship are on us all, let me spread mine around you